Sometimes Randomly Writing Helps
Posted by Dave Tarantula on February 26, 2009
It’s Thursday Morning more specifically it’s currently 9:33 at the time as I write this. I figured I’d get to the college even earlier to get a good spot but I ended up parking in the Lot over from the West Building once again. I’m starting to wonder if people wake up at 6am or earlier just to park in front of the West Building cause I’ve never seen the lot fill up so fast by 9:00am. Oh well, let’s get back on track to the point of this entry which in certain ways is related to school a bit.
A few weeks ago, I met this incredible down to earth person in one of my classes. While we don’t talk outside of class much and now even less since our professor switched things up, we get along great even the small “Hi’s!” just suffices enough. Eventually I decided that I was going to tell them how I felt, however I soon learned that they were in a relationship. It wasn’t from word of mouth or anything of that sort, instead it was through those lovely facebook profiles we’ve all come to love and hate. The profile said “Married to” and it was one of those things where I just said out loud “You guys aren’t married!”, I hate those statuses if your not married don’t set it to that. Sorry I’m getting off topic.
For a while I wrestled with myself about if I should tell them or not. Two friends recommended I should through a letter, ok actually make that three, while another clearly explained why I shouldn’t. Eventually the decision made was not to tell them. It sucked but I felt it was more important not to possibly ruin a friendship. I may never know the out come of things, but a friendship is better then nothing. Then I started remembering the past conversations I had all the time with a friend of mine last night and realized that there are feelings for them still possibly. But as I tried to discuss this with them, I eventually realized that it was one of those “rushes” one gets if that makes any sense. But also the same time I felt guilty for trying to get this person to talk about it. It was crystal clear that they didn’t want to, they were busy but I didn’t find that out till they actually said something. Guess I’m not to great with hints huh?
Oh well so here I am one person I realize that while there are feelings there, nothing will probably become of it. Them being happy is the most important thing to me and breaking them away from some their dating would be the wrong thing to do. If it’s meant to be it will eventually happen. The other person their just a friend and as much as I had that rush and wish things were the way they used to be, I know that what’s in the past won’t come back again.
So with that said what was the point of this post? Well mainly just to vent in all honesty, but I also hope that those who do read this realize that it’s not the end of the world and that some times letting go of something is the best thing to do and if it comes back then it’s yours. Not only just that but trying to relive the past and trying to make things go back to the way they were can be dangerous in a way. What’s done is done, instead of trying to relive them again just look back and cherish those memories.
Not exactly an exciting post today, but I just needed write and my CW class has certainly helped me with doing that more often and sometimes randomly writing helps.
