I wanted start off by talking about this past Saturday night as it’s the highlight of my weekend.
Saturday my band and I played a small gig for Dane’s (Drummer) sisters sweet 16 party. There were roughly 100 kids (at least that’s what I was told). We were originally suppose to play for a half hour in the beginning and then play the rest of the night at 8:30 – 8:40. But we couldn’t figure out what songs to play as they were between 2:00 – 3:00 minutes each and we didn’t want to play our own songs at that time. So instead Dave C (lead guitarist/vocalist) played some of his music for a bit, then dinner, and then we were on.
I’ve played live shows before but most of them were competing for money (BOTB), and another just didn’t go well. This was our first time actually playing live, being able to have fun and do what we love to do. It was the first time that I myself really felt excited to play live, especially since this would be the first time we played our new material live. The kids who were there were a bit hesitant at first, Leonard (bassist) and I were telling everyone to stand up and to participate. Leah (Lead Vocals) eventually joined in with helping us. It was great seeing everyone get involved with our music dancing, singing along to some of the covers we did. It was actually really encouraging.
There were some slight hick ups with my pedal but nothing too noticable, people told me that they didn’t notice anything when I said I messed up on something’s for example going into a chorus I ment to step on my distortion, but when my foot came off it, I tripped my echo effect pedal so it never exactly went into it and I couldn’t tell if my one distortion pedal was working properly during a song ( I think I accidentally lowered my volume pedal) so I turned on my CTRL pedal which I shouldn’t have done as it gave a heavy distortion (quickly turned it off though).
So over all I was happy with the turn out and I had that high so to speak to play Live again. I can’t wait to get back out there and to play for even more people. Leonard is working on getting us into the studio (free) to record some tracks.
Now Fourth of July, long story short it got ended early. My cousin, Brother and I were launching Fireworks and while we were firing off our last Mortar a Longhill Police Officer was turning on to the street. While he was coming down the drive my cousin is yelling (let’s fire off the ring in ring ones now!). Shortly after we hear “Long Hill Police” and he starts questioning us, getting our Lincense’s checked out, taking down my cousins information (it was her house), and then asking us if we know that it’s illegal in the State of NJ to have fireworks and to be firing them off, and then informs us that if he has to come back because were firing off more that we’ll be arrested and charged. But it was fun for the amount of time we had to fire them off.
On another note I’ve noticed that I’m really having trouble with sleep. Not in the sense that I wake up during the night not being able to falling asleep. It’s more so every day during the week and especially on weekends. I feel very restless when I wake up, even when I have gotten plenty of sleep. During the week I just feel like not wanting to go to work just because I feel so restless, and during the weekends I just don’t want to get up and really do anything at all. Maybe it’s my mattress or my pillows? I’m not quite sure honestly but it’s draining me a lot.
But what else is really weird is about 2 weeks ago I got into a fight with one of my friends about some one they want to be friends with and then eventually date again and last night I had a dream where I was returning a text book to a friend but there were no cars in the drive way, so I went into there house and of course I didn’t find anyone, so I walk out and then all of a sudden there’s this white Lexus like car in the drive way, and my friends brother comes up and says hi, I tell him I’m leaving, and as I’m about to close the door after he walks away and goes in I see the person that my friend and I got into a fight about as they are abusive, liar, etc.
Next thing I know he starts swinging at me and hitting me with a hockey stick. I was able to get out and he throws me a hockey stick and wants to fight. I start defending myself and next thing I know my friend, and their older sister come out of the house. And this person we got into a fight over about, all of a sudden no longer has a hockey stick and I’m with one and my friend and their sister just look at me. I start saying “This is not what it looks like, he attacked me when I was in the car and then gave me this…” and I just stopped there and they walked towards me my friend tells me to not even bother explaining, and they take him turn around to go inside and then the dream just ends and I wake up a few minutes later from my alarm clock.
Weird huh? I can’t determine if this was some kind of spiritual battle or what. Cause this issue I have with my friend has been going on for the past two weeks, and the issues I have with this other person have been going on for a while.
All of this I kind of realized in my car on my way here to work. I put on a David Crowder* Band CD that I was listening to yesterday (Illuminate) and I fast forward to a specific track and then listened to the following one after that. I’m not sure what came over me, but I started to feel tears come to my eyes, during the two songs and all of a sudden the heaviness, sadness that I felt was gone. I wouldn’t say my spirits were lifted and I felt happy cause I wasn’t jumping for joy or smiling or anything. I just no longer felt what I felt before. I don’t know what I felt and I still feel it now. It feels like as if everything is just very lite around me, and as if there’s something not there and I don’t even know what it is.
Hopefully some of you have some insight on this cause I can’t figure it out at all.
I’m starting to eat healthier, almost every single time I ate something it involved meat (I do love steak) and other unhealthy things. You can also see it in pictures between my Junior/Senior year of Highschool and now. Man was I skinny and in shape then! I’m really trying to cut back, I’ve been cutting back on the meat, and cutting back on the late night snacking, ice cream, and what not. I’m now looking into eating more greens like a chicken salad with light dressing. And then of course I’m working in some work outs. I’ve started picking back up DDR, I want to pick up Wii Fit soon, and hopefully I can get back into going to the gym again soon. Any suggestions also appreciated on eating healthier and getting in shape if anyone of you have any.